Charles talks about the inner struggle as something that can break people, and how he overcame his struggle through his understanding of the deep wrongness with the way the world is and functions now, direct experience that the consensus reality and explanation of the world is wrong and far too narrow and limited, spiritual experiences, and encountering people who just lived in different ways, who didn’t buy into the mainstream model of life and success, and also seeing that people who did buy into the current system and and achieved conventional success, were not saved from sadness, from divorce, depression and addictions – their rewards were empty. That’s when the best medicine is a view of another kind of success, another kind of well-being, through spiritual experience, or something similar.
There is also repeated mention of listening to a call – which again, is the first line from the first branch of the Mabinogion
“Pwyll, prince of Dyfed, was lord over the seven cantrefs of Dyfed. Once upon a time he was at Arberth, one of his chief courts, and it came into his head and his heart to go hunting.”
Charles sees this as a call to initiation, which is not to be rushed, but to be acknowledged and to take small steps when you are ready and to trust your own pace. To remember that you are an expression of life. YOU ARE LIFE.